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Monday, October 30, 2006

took me forever to figure out my password. hahaha.. turns out it was that password.. i suppose i have to change it.

it's been.. almost 3 months now. but i guess it's not enough to change the habit. it's still strange to call him by his name. i guess it would have helped if i could call him by his chi name. but that's not allowed. i wonder when he'll get his new chi name.

i feel like i know myself less and less. and i feel like i'm being swept away by time. i'm not keeping up with it. also.. i found that i don't care about school as much as i do before. recently, i got a horrible grade for my midterm.. but i didn't care as much like i used to. got over it pretty quickly. that's a bad sign. i'm becoming apathetic towards a lot of things.. this isn't who i want to be.. i want time to freeze for a while. just so i could get over stuff, regain myself.. but time waits for no man.. bleh..

the more i force myself to care.. the more i found that i don't want to care.. i don't know what to do anymore. suggestions anyone?

Meowed at 2:43 AM


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